PLAY THE PART, SUFFER LATER

It's been almost a year since my first mortifying theatrical performance. I was offered the role by my father when a cousin of mine started circulating the scurrilous rumor that I am what the role is. Suffice it to say that my parents were alarmed by such rumor. So they looked for the perfect actress to play opposite me.

When everything was set, i never got the chance to fully explain my reluctance. But it's tradition and I thought fixed marriage is something i can easily dodge. But things got worse than I thought.

The marriage was never consummated for obvious reasons. Now it's almost torn apart. My father is exerting so much pressure on me either to divorce her or discharge my so-called marital obligations. It's not like he's giving me options here when the truth of the matter is, he wants me to follow what he thinks is "proper."

I know what I should do. I know the risk I am taking. He cannot accept me for what I am and so I have to move out after the divorce.

The biggest problem I am facing really is my personal relationship with God. I know I am mad but He is the one I need the most.